Sacrilegious film photography methods + Script writing

Hello world! Sorry I don't have any new art to post or anything like that, instead I'm coming to you with a question. Do you consider it sacrilegious to edit film photography? Or is it simply part of the job? I think for a long time I've been trying to get the perfect shot. What I mean by that is: No editing, good lighting, good composition, etc. For some reason the thought of editing a film photo in particular stresses me out. I'm not sure why. I don't think anyone would jump out at me and scream, "FRAUD!!!!!" But I can't help and feel as though that really is what would happen! I personally don't care about the sanctity of film when it comes to film soup and would LOVE to do that at some point. I think the only thing that stresses me out is the fact that I paid money to get that roll of film only to dump it into random chemicals and spices... Scares me a little!!

Got some of my photos back that I am choosing to edit particularly. I was driving home one day when I saw a deer on the road, and so I parked and ran as fast as I could to a good spot in order to take a photo. As soon as I took my shots, I noticed there was at least 6 other deer just hanging out and being fed by an old man next to the road. He had signs up saying, "Slow down, deer crossing!" i was very, very excited. I got closer and closer until the deer would back up. I would extend my hand and pretend i had food, only for them to maybe inch over three steps, and stay there. 

Point is: i took a lot of photos. I forgot I was shooting on film and thought, "I can just edit these later!" As soon as i felt like i had shot enough, I realized my mistake. NOOOO!!! YOU CAN'T EDIT FILM!!!!! ITS EVIL!!!!! Just kidding. I need to get over it, sooooo many people edit their film photos. Right??????? IDK, you let me know!

Something I noticed shooting photos on this new camera was that the focus was actually way too strong, making it seem as if i turned up the sharpen feature on photoshop already. the camera i used for these photos is Nikon F4 and it's a super heavy-duty camera. It was gifted to me by my bfs grandpa and he thrifted it! Amazing. I love it and have been trying to figure out if there is any strong difference between this and my other manual cameras. I have a few point and shoots, but right now am trying to focus on manual. I also want to focus more on digital photography as i think i mentioned in my last blog post; but i have run into an issue. I can't find my digital camera. It's honestly been driving me really crazy. I'm moving soon and am hoping that through the wreckage of objects in my room/storage unit my beloved camera will reappear. 

On a different note, I know I haven't updated this blog in a while, but I don't think anyone really cares. (Thankfully!) Writing and reading is slow paced, anyway. Writing is something I think I deny myself often because I feel as if I'm not good enough at it, and my approach is to keep writing as my hobby more than anything. Having someone read your poetry or short story is hard enough as it is. 

It's hard to feel that way considering I want to make movies. Sometimes trying to come up with a good script idea feels like fishing in a desert. Suddenly my brain is a Sahara and I have no life experience and any thoughts I have or want to explore are simply too perverse or uncooked or too close to home and someone will yell at me if I make it and blah blah blah blah blah. I understand having this thought process stalls actual productivity, but I feel as though I need to gather every sliver of sardine I find in that desolate hot sand and mix it all in a bucket together. Maybe I end up finding a very real mirage with a pond and dump some cold, cold, COLD water on those sardines. Maybe they'll start wriggling around. 

Making a short film or a film in GENERAL feels like daydreaming all day long. Hmm that would look pretty and I also like the idea of this happening and oh what if a giant tornado hits a city or a girl works in an ice cream shop and the shop is these colors and, and, and, and and....... Whatever! Start writing! I have a personal preference towards writing scripts rather than short fiction stories. I like the rules of a script. It is straightforward and provides just enough description, which in turn allows you to fill in the gaps with whatever you want. 

I think those are my notes for now. My updates. Will write another blog if I feel like it. Thanks for reading/caring.

                                                                                       

ps: I also updated a few different things on my blog! So, look around. My photo section is neater, my contact section allows you to harass me officially via submit button, my art section has more, and the cursor on the site should be a cute little heart :)